We were asked by our Pyschology 101 teacher to discuss personal interpretation of the meanings behind one’s dreams and I believe until today that every dream is a collection of random images from the minute activities of neurons while we’re sleeping. It’s our unconscious that patches these images to one or more stories or possibly none. There are times that subconscious overtakes and controls such stories.

And earlier this morning, I woke up from a different dream. Perhaps, certain neurons still contain images of Ampatuans, I Love You, Goodbye and more.

The dream sequence started when missiles were launched from military type helicopters. They are headed to our direction. I was with Cheche Lazaro, Angelica Panganiban and Derek Ramsay, and other folks from an event, maybe a gathering. When we’re finally surrounded, Korean-look soldiers went down from the chopper and took us as their captives.

The next scene, I was with other hostages but this time without the three celebrities. And then some were selected to play a hitting-the-target game. Of course everyone was expecting who ever was selected had the chance to die at that game. I dunno what happened next.

Just when I thought it’s the right time to sneak out, I escaped from their hideout. I ran and it seemed they didn’t follow me. And then I found this resort afar. I had to cross a deserted land and to passed a tornado. Luckily, I managed not to be sucked in by the twister.

I broke in to the resort and found some media men and they interviewed me.

That’s it.

As for the meanings…

Captivity indicates something that I am refusing to acknowledge or something that I am in denial about. Explosion suggests repressed anger which the unconscious wants me to pay attention. Having a celebrity repesents my pursuit for pleasure. Ahay! It also represents my beliefs and understanding about him or her. In this particular dream, Cheche Lazaro but hmmm, the couple Angelica and Derek?

Tornado suggests extreme emotional outbursts and temper tantrums. Weh?

And journalists in my dream tells me that I am making a conscious observation of my life. Yay!

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Once again, I remembered my dream. But it’s creepy.

I am hunting vampires (or maybe aswang creatures). A personal mission I guess. Although I’m unsure if I’m doing it alone because someone’s telling me what to do next. I didn’t see my sidekick in the entire dream but he looks like my master. Maybe he’s already a ghost ala jedi master.

The first scene of the vampire sequence is when I caught this lady vampire from a ball who resembled Bill Compton’s maker in True Blood. Unlike the popular vampires nowadays, she didn’t have the strength. She seems like a human only with fangs. I took a broken mirror and acted like I wanted to cut off her head.

She used her glamour against me and told me that killing her won’t stop them. And then, flashbacks. What she meant was I have vampire friends. Familiar faces and yes they are my friends in real life.

The last setting was a flashback on the school grounds of my elementary school, a Catholic school. Everyone’s receiving a chocolate candy from our canteen given by someone. Maybe, that’s when it all started.

I don’t know!

But here are some clues and meanings behind my dreams.

Given that the setting was from a night gala, perhaps I still contain the male star of the night feeling I had the last time I attended a formal event. With vampires, I don’t know. Maybe, I miss watching True Blood. Elementary school flashback may come from the recent discussion with elementary classmates regarding reunion. Chocolate candy is perhaps the purple Hershey’s kisses that I macro shot.

According to the dream dictionary, vampires symbolize seduction and sensuality (ahay!). It can also be fear and death. It could also be a person I’m mingling with right now even though I know that this person is bad for me, I’m still on her or him. Candy also represents indulgence, sensuality and/or forbidden pleasure. (Ahay!)

A night gala however suggests a positive outlook in life while dreaming a childhood school is in ruins suggests that I might be dwelling on some unresolved childhood issue.

By the way, my version of vampires do not sparkle.

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It’s time of the year when at least something from you should be new. I spent the first day of the year quite productive launching personal projects. I’ve changed the theme for this blog. It’s still borky though. I’ve also started two Project 365s. One is called Freudian Sleep where I blog my night dreams and the other is Shorts, a photoblog of still life soliloquy.

2010, please give me the discipline to finish these projects and most importantly, my thesis. Happy New Year!

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I’m all set to start my written project 365 (and there’s a photoblog project 365). That is to blog my daily, er nightly, dreams. Unfortunately, even though I’ve been successful in retrieving some scenes from my dreams for the past nights, I was not able to recall any single detail from my dream today.

So, instead, I’m sharing with you my “dream”, not just today, but like forever – a girlfriend.

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Previously on Top 9 of 2009:

Top 9: Pixar’s Up

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It was my second time to quit my job.

Pinagsabihan na ako ng parents ko at ng kapatid ko na huwag akong mag-resign dahil nga wala naman akong problema sa management at mas malaki naman ang kinikita ko di hamak dito kaysa sa unang trabaho. Nalaman din nila na dahil ako’y babalik sa UP para mag-aral. Hindi dahil sa tutol sila sa pag-aaral (ngunit hindi pa rin nila alam kung paraan saan pa ang masters) ngunit hindi sila kumbinsido kung kakayanin ko ba at nila na hindi ako kumikita sa loob ng 18 buwan.

Ang pagbabalik sa UP ang sinabi kong dahilan sa aking manager at sa aming president. Mabait talaga sila. Natawa na lang din ako nung sinabi ng presidente ng kumpanya namin na hindi naman niya kinailangan yung masters degree para sa posisyon na meron siya ngayon. LOL. Mukhang alam niya kasi na gusto ko ang posisyon nya pero sa sariling kumpanya ko. Ang manager ko naman ayaw talaga ako paalisin. Gumagawa siya ng paraan para manatili ako pero buo na rin kasi ang loob ko.

Hindi ako masyadong nahirapan sa desisyon kumpara sa unang pagbitiw ko.

I haven’t been so attached to my officemates because I felt I was backstabbed every day. If there were few good persons in the office that I became friends with, it is because we have mutual respect to each other. But I haven’t opened up so much to them either. One can blame me for not adapting to the environment well but I’ll tell you, I tried all socializing skills that I know and it won’t simply work to some of them.

Nakita ko rin kasi kung paano nila apihin (totoo, apihin is an understatement) yung iba kaya alam kong ginagawa rin nila sa akin yun patalikod. Ayaw kong ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko lalo na sa kanila.

Tulad ng nasabi ko kanina, wala akong problem sa management. Hindi ko mareklamo kaya naappreciate ko kung ano yung mga ginagawa nila kahit yung ilan ay naghihimutok na. Hindi rin ako sipsip dahil hindi ko kailangan nun. Wala lang talagang perfect working place.

Malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanila dahil nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon para mag-part-time MS CS. Nakakapasok ako sa mga klase kung gusto ko. Hindi naging hadlang ang trabaho maliban na lamang ang layo ng opisina. Mall of Asia tapos Diliman. Stress.

Pero dahil na rin sa pagbabalik sa UP, kaya mas naisipan ko na lang na mag-full-time.

This resignation is the sweetest freedom ever. Iba talaga kapag malaya ka na.

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At ang susunod sa aking listahan ay “Family Affairs”.

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